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Can you feel the pre race tension?
I have had an amazing Journey over the past 8 or so years and have learnt some invaluable lessons, overcome many an obstacle and have tried to encourage people to pick themselves up when they are knocked down and to never give up on their Dreams.
Well I guess I’m going to have to dig deep and start re applying many of the lessons learnt and try and do what I would be telling anybody else who has been knocked down. Time is a great healer and I know I will look back on this experience in time (already am)…… smile and say thanks for the lessons, as there is a lesson to be learnt in everything we do, it’s just that in the moment we grapple to understand why things happen as they do.
At lunch time on Monday my daughter said to me, “Dad, where is your Wedding Band?” and my heart sank as I knew I had it on when I started swimming the 3.8km Ironman swim at the World Championships in Kona, Hawaii and remember feeling it shifting on my finger and for a fleeting moment thinking about the Titanic and the ring dropping to the bottom of the Ocean. I skipped two swim strokes, pushed it back on and never thought of it again. I was so focussed that I immediately put the ring out of my mind and concentrated on staying on the feet of the swimmer in front of me.
The strange thing is I’ve swum hundreds, if not thousands of times in the Ocean, never taken my ring off and never had it slide off. So should I have taken my ring off, would I have taken it off even if I had thought about it? The answer is simply No, what happened was beyond my control (or maybe I shouldn’t have lost as much weight as I did…) and therein lies one of the Lessons of my Ironman race.
Would I have done anything different to avoid going down like the Titanic during the bike leg? No, I prepared to the very best of my ability, I sacrificed as much as I could (as did my family), I tried to work on the what I could control and truth be told I did look in the mirror after the race and asked myself if I gave it my best? The answer was a resounding Yes, as I never waivered in my commitment to finishing this race which was the major objective and a repeatedly stated objective of mine.
Ironman athletes get punctures, slow ones too, we run out of air (‘bombs’ in triathlon jargon) and our fellow competitors aren’t interested in slowing to help strangers (although a few did hand/toss me a ‘bomb’ enabling me to get closer to the finish line and I am very grateful to them for their help) and even the bike tech guys, who are out there doing their best may only find or stumble across you way too late. It happens and we may never fully comprehend why it should happen on this one particular World Championship day thousands of miles from home.
Make no mistake, I was gutted, I was devastated, even heart-broken and I shed many a tear out there in the hot Lava Fields, but they all evaporated very quickly and while I’ve had hundreds of encouraging and supportive messages I know that people do not like ‘pity parties’, so the good news is you won’t be getting an invite to one for me, as I’m already building a bridge in an effort to get over it and move on with the next chapter of my life.
I do try and live Life without regrets and when I departed the the Big Island of Hawaii, which had been our ‘home’ for 4 weeks, I chose to put my personal disappointments behind me and am able to say “No regrets, I came, I prepared, I tried with all my might, I took the long road (which I prefer to do in my Isuzu 4 x4) and I persevered as best I could to that hallowed finish line on Alii Dve to complete the Ironman World Championships. I am Blessed to have been able to participate and to have fulfilled my Dream of racing in Hawaii, so I am eternally grateful for this wonderful opportunity..” As a family it was a great experience too, drawing Michelle, Camryn, Jamie and I closer than we already were.
Yes, I was a bit of an emotional wreck for a day or two and I am still hurting inside. It is disappointing when you give your absolute everything to prepare for a race, you swim, bike, run, day after day, you work on your core, your mind, you watch what you eat and get your weight down to the target you set for yourself…. and your family sacrifice so much, your clients are patient and your work colleagues and employers are very encouraging and understanding and your friends and sponsors so very supportive.
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All going well on the first half of the bike, after a great swim.
I seemingly timed my taper well, as I had a brilliant swim, coming in 2-4 minutes ahead of scheduled expectations and was feeling great on the bike, so one could hardly ask for more. It was a case of being patient, of good nutrition during the bike, of being conservative to enable one to fight really hard in the latter stages of the bike and in the marathon run. I’m not going to go into details of all the mechanical issues I had out there amongst the Lava fields, where you frustratingly end up pushing your bike and walking for 45 minutes in the sweltering heat and don’t see a solitary spectator and it is just you, your mind and the elements.
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In pursuit of the ‘finish’ with a borrowed wheel, supplied by Bike Works.
At times I thought I was having a nightmare and kept trying to wake up, at times I couldn’t control the heartache and the tears flowed, but I had to try and keep myself sane, try and keep my mind strong, I had to persevere and finish this race and get this monkey off my back, as it’s been a 27 year Dream to participate in and finish this race. After what seemed an eternity a vehicle arrived out of the haze and provided me with a borrowed rear wheel, so I was finally back in the ‘race’.
Too late to compete though, as I was now virtually last in my age group. One feels cheated when you cannot test yourself physically and mentally as this is what we athletes prepare for. In fact we have a craving to compete, to see if we can push through the pain barriers and on this fateful day I wasn’t going to be challenging any physical barriers, only mental ones and not the mental ones I prepared myself for.
This was no longer the race for the podium, or a top ten finish, this was simply the ‘race’ of life! Life is like an Ironman, you will get knocked down and you have to dust yourself off and get back into the ring and keep plugging away. I am pleased that I kept on plugging away and my family (and friends and family at home following on the net) made it that much easier to keep on pushing, as did my late Step Son Reece, Terry (Father in Law) and Harry (Dad).
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A tough Marathon lay ahead….
Jamie (my 12 yo son) was with me for almost every stride of the marathon, as he ran on the opposite side of the road barefoot for 7km, before Liezel and Conrad Stoltz came to offer me some encouragement and Liezel immediately offered her bike to Jamie. Obviously he jumped at the chance and Conrad lowered the seat and Jamie (no shoes) rode 30 odd kilometres with the South African flag draped over his shoulders, cheering everyone on. That kept me in the present and going at a good pace and it was only when it started getting dark and I said to Jamie he needed to head to the finish (as he had no light) that I allowed my mind to wander and I was overcome with emotion. For about 3km of this race I took a time out, before getting a grip on the emotions that inevitably surfaced, enabling me to enjoy and saviour the joy of finishing one of the World’s toughest and greatest endurance races, the Ironman World Championships.
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Happy and relieved to have finally started and finsihed the Ironman World Championships
I am grateful to my family for greeting me with a smile and their unconditional support and love, I am grateful to my friends and colleagues for their support and words of encouragement, I am grateful to my sponsors Isuzu (as well as Oakley, Cytomax, Orca and Online Innovations) and to the leadership within our business, Consolidated, for their encouragement.
One of the most effective leaders in the Bible, St Paul, said, “I am focussing all my energies on this one thing. Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” I too will put this behind me and look forward to what lies ahead.
In closing I would like to congratulate Germany’s Wolfgang Schmatz who won in 9hrs 31 minutes, with a 3 hour 10 min marathon a phenomenal performance (winning the 50-54 Age Group by an astonishing 24 minutes) and certainly a performance I would not have been able to match on the day. Congratulations too to top South African finisher Kyle Buckingham (Velocity Sports Lab) who recorded a time of 9hrs 19 minutes, as well as Andre Van Heerden (55-59) and Ken Poole (70+) who both placed 5th in their age categories.
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Top South African finisher Kyle Buckingham, a great talent for the future.